|I understand what your feeling, cause I too feel the same way, except for one difference. Your able to right it down and I'm not. The only way I am able to deal with it on a reagular basis is the ever-long downward slope of self mutilation, or if you want to label me, I guess you could call me a "Cutter." But labels are so widely over used these days. I read your stuff every chance I get, and in some ways it explains exactly what and how I feel. Just remember, that is never going to end unless you deeply want it to end. Other then that, your doing great by me.|
|Hiya, stopped over from the Goddess Webring. I'm quite the poetry fanatic...so I've read all of your poetry and am quite impressed with the emotion that surges through your words. My favorites...were the "to my daughter" and "resolutions", which seemed to have hope laying just beneath the surface of the lines. I like that. Hope isn't so easy to find these days. I will read through the rest of your pages another day, but for now, keep up the good work, and welcome to the Goddess Webring.|
Hi there. I got here through a depression webring. I think it's great that
you put your story up here on the net, for others to see. I can totally to
relate to you, just like you, I went through a depression... and sometimes I
feel like its coming back. I would be very honored if you would join my
webring about depression. I call it
. It's for women on the web who have or are going through a depression, and
who have homepages that deals with this topic. I'm trying very hard to
spread the word about depression, and this is just another one of my tries in
doing so. Will you join? I'd be grateful.
|Wow. Beautiful page. I love the vast number of resources.|
|Lisa, this is a very sobering page. It's hard to imagine someone going through life as you are, but it's so evident in your writings that the pain you have is so real. Even your poetry (which I thought was very good) exposed your pain. I hope one day your depression will lift to show you how life should be lived.|
|hi lisa. you recalled my college days. i was actually reading myself while probing your mind. and i eventually found out that there is so much to share amongst people of different cultural, regional and ethnic background. the heart is big and the world is small. men and women develop their selves while looking into themselves. and they build up compassion while probing other people's minds. whenever depression is about to overwhelm me, i chose to travel -- travel to a place of different cultural background. sometime one has to "go out of his/her mind" in order to "find out his/her true self", don't they? you are not alone lisa. jan. 5, 1998|
|Hi ; ) I enjoyed your site and I think it's great that you share your thoughts on depression, It really helps when you know your not alone. Jess|
|love your site-especially your opinio on depression. absolutely lovely, great job. oh, and thanks for signing my guestbook and the positive encouragement..you gave me some good advice.|
|Dear Lisa.... I wanted to say thank you for puting the info on depression on your page. For people like us who suffer greatly from this disease, it can be as life threatening and painful as cancer. I have had ADHD for all of my life and as is common, my symptoms changed to depression as i became an adult. I would love to meet/chat/email you..you seem like a NEAT lady. Blessed BE, Cyndi g|
|Dear Lisa, MM I really enjoyed your page --especially the feminine spirituality section. Blessings!|
|I just wanted to tell you I know how you feel. I am going through all that too now. I may only be 14, but what does age matter in a situation like this. I need someone to talk to who will understand. Please email me.|
|Happy November and thanks for the chair are you into your middies yet,there off and running,here on the Old West's campus. Samantha was dedicated at a wiccan ceremony up in Salem Mass over the Hallows eve weekend,she's a tuf girl.As for me I'm just grist in the mill,working the nights away dreaming of sweat-lodges and peyote,looking through a glass onion at the sleepers trying so hard not wake up from their illusions.At night as I go about my life,suffering from all those well formed where can one go and share the longing and find a fellow companion?It's all too much at times,I wish I could talk to my friend Deacon but he suicided over a failed relationship,he was so much stronger than I yet I remain,truly a twist of fate.Well anon fare thee well,peace love kiss babies---robin|
B.J. George Oliver
- 10/07/97 23:39:22
My Email: El_Oliver@hotmail.com
Would you sell your soul for some really good cajun food?: Why not ?
So what would you sell your soul for? Be honest. Noone's as altruistic as that.: An Aladdin's Lamp that grants me infinite wishes
Have you ever walked on water?: I thought everyone did it
Do you like me? Do you Really like me?: At least , I like your site
I really liked your page. The test is WONDERFUL. I'm not so depressed, but i'd like not to be depressed at all. I'll be back later.
- 10/06/97 04:27:16
My Email: email@example.com
Would you sell your soul for some really good cajun food?: depends on how hungry I was
How about for working x ray glasses?: are those edible too?
So what would you sell your soul for? Be honest. Noone's as altruistic as that.: I'd give my soul to my sono, I'm keeping it for my yet unfound soulmate
What is your favorite letter?: a love letter
Have you ever walked on water?: no, but i do enjoy getting wet
Do you like me? Do you Really like me?: really really silly!
I sing myself to sleep..a song from the darkest hour Secrets I can't keep...insight of the day Swing from high to deep...extremes of sweet and sour Hope that God exists...I hope I pray Drawn by the undertow...my life is out of control I believe this wave will bear my weight...so let it flow Now I'm relieved to hear that you've been to some far out places It's hard to carry on when you feel all alone Now I've swung back down again...it's worse than it was before If I hadn't seen such riches...I could live with being poor Those who feel the breath of sadness, sit down next to me Those who find they're touched by madness, sit down next to me Those who find themselves ridiculous, sit down next to me In love, in fear, in hate, in tears, sit down next to me sit down, down, down, down, down in sympathy -lyrics by Tim Booth One more song then I'll shut up.... Nevermind me 'cause I've been dead Out of my body I've been out of my head Nevermind the songs I hum You don't want to along There's nothing that I said That'll bring you happiness Happiness is hard to come by I confess I'm bad at this thing, happiness If you find it, share it with the rest of us Nevermind the words that came out of my mouth when all that I could feel was pain The difference in the two of us Comes down to the way You rise over things I just put down Nevermind me 'cause I've been dead Been out of my body Been out of my head Nevermind the curse I wore Proud like a badge till it just won't shine no more Happiness is hard to come by I confess Im bad at this thing happpiness If you find it, share it with the rest of us With the rest of us -lyrics by Grant Lee Phillips thanks for singing with me :)
Fred, Lord of all things Good and Holy
- 10/03/97 23:45:43
My URL: http://www.gti.net/bman
My Email: firstname.lastname@example.org
Would you sell your soul for some really good cajun food?: I may lease it...
How about for working x ray glasses?: I see not. Yet I do. Don't blame me man, I didn't do it!
So what would you sell your soul for? Be honest. Noone's as altruistic as that.: I would say love... but what is love without soul? Well frankly I dunno if that's metaphysical bullshit or just plain acurate.
What is your favorite letter?: Q. No contest.
Have you ever walked on water?: For very brief periods of time, yes. Then I fall in.
Do you like me? Do you Really like me?: Duh. Of course. I like plungers too!
It looks like you put a _lot_ of work in on this page! Sheesh!
Rob aka Robin
- 09/30/97 05:49:00
My URL: http://email@example.com
My Email: as above love
Would you sell your soul for some really good cajun food?: to the extreme
How about for working x ray glasses?: you see right thru me
So what would you sell your soul for? Be honest. Noone's as altruistic as that.: true love really for two
What is your favorite letter?: Y of course
Have you ever walked on water?: only if Ican see the rocks
Do you like me? Do you Really like me?: love at first type
Happy October and thanks for the chair,a most enjoyable website I must say.I am going back to read your poetry somemore.I write on occasion and I also paint,although not professionally at either,my paintings go to friends as I cannot put a price on my pai nor bear to burden others who are not at least connected to the shambles of my life.I have never engaged in on-line dialogue with anyone before so if I seemed plagued by by doubt or paradox ,it is because like Hamlet and recognize that at best Iam indiff rently honest,however I would like to have you write to me. As you can tell Iam not the best of spellers nor the best in keeping my paragraphs together, but please if you want write to me and WE WILL LIVE FOREVER ON THE INTERNET.....Peace,Love and Kiss Ba ies,faithly Rob